Knowledge from Above & Principalities VS People

I just arrived home from Texas spending the entire day with my beautiful wife.

That night I received a message from my father to look for work.

I logged into Facebook immediately after and saw a message from my friend about work!

“Well that was fast!”

I was so eccstatic I immediately went to meet my friend to catch up and we discussed my trip and how there are no coincidences. He then testified tearfully to this himself from something that happened to him recently.

The next day he received a nerve-racking phone call.

As I watched him I saw fear set in. Like a good father his dad told home to take me. That really stood out after learning about the roles of a perfect family.

On the way up The Holy Spirit showed me what was going on with the individual we were going to meet. As I described who this person was I also saw how he opened legal doors to the enemy.

When we arrived my friend had to go to the bathroom. When he did I looked over the building to where this meeting was taken place and I saw a 60 foot fallen angel and the Holy Spirit said; “principality”. Around it’s feet I saw a few evil spirit’s as well.

When my friend came back I said to him, “you know what I just saw! That’s who your fighting! Your not fighting people! Your fighting this thing!” Tears began to fill his eyes. I saw the torment he had gone through at that moment.

I’d like to note that the person I met there was a really nice guy. Legal doors can happen to any of us

After the meeting had ended and we arrived back his father asked, “so what do you think?”

I said what do I think? As I began to tell him what happened on the way up he grabbed his baseball cap and the it on the ground! That really stood out to me! After I finished I walked away.

After they finished we did a walkthrough. When it was done his father came up to me and told me that his wife had been praying every night for him for 8 months asking God to send him someone. Than he said “it was you Rob, it was you”! The second time he said that tears filled his eyes and joyful tears filled mine.

I walked away, came back said do you know what I was doing 3 weeks ago!?..


Insecure Pride; I Will Become Even More Undignified Than This!

I almost didn’t make it to prayer meeting. As the day lingered on I fell into despair. My website renewal came up and I didn’t have the money. I wanted to drown my sorrows. I have been overwhelmed by all the negativity from social media that I wanted to throw in the towel again.

That is it I’m done! I don’t care about anything anymore! I’m going to shut down. I don’t care if I have to go to a dessert or forest for 6 months I am not leaving until I hear HIS voice again!

This was caused by me buying into doubt, a lie, from religious attacks on social media that drove a wedge between my personal relationship with God. I was recently healed in that area. Here is what happened that mended that not too long ago. It truly is the sword:

On my way their, I was speaking to a friend over the phone about how I wanted to revamp my website to precisely separate fact from speculation as Josh Peck advised, which he does with his books. and as I learned from Lawrence McCurry.

I also want to reserve the right to be wrong as Chris Parker does. It also shows humility which is m favorite quality, making use of a retraction page. I’d also like to keep my books in a free format as Rob Skiba does, videos not copyrighted as Kent Hovind and accessed from YouTube as Trey Smith does.

When I arrived some people were talking about similar issues and how to deal with the conflict with brothers and sisters. Some times its better to remain quiet. There are no coincidences!

I stepped on a few toes and stated that I was wrong, I fell into sin. I also broke my Matthew 18-15-17 rule. Never confront anyone through impersonal, misconstrued, textual, mistranslations. Only confront or apologize by phone for tone of voice minimum or something like Skype etc which is even better. Body language speaks volumes.

A week ago God told me lovingly with conviction as HE can only do that I was actually building Satan’s Army when in conflict & I have completely seen that unfold on social media. Like Atoms colliding, strife bouncing from 1 to the next interaction, and the next. All as if playing tag where everyone is it! Passing off an infectious virus, a pyramid of domino’s into confusion, frustration, anger and utter chaos, where everyone looses except the enemy.

As everyone shared, it reminded me of an incident where I was attacked recently in my home. As the individual went off on me, 1 after the other, after the other, God told me to be quiet and so I did. I hung my head and stared at the ground.

After 15 minutes of condescending and ridicule, I looked up, and when I did he showed me not who I was fighting but what I was fighting!

The eyes were glaring yellow blazing as they were talking. Their was a dark cloud surrounding them. I could see this person was being controlled like a puppet from a great force behind and high above them.

The second I noticed what in reality was going on, the entity dropped their jaw and was taken back like a deer in headlights.

It was in complete shock as if it had blown it’s cover. Then the individuals composure completely changed and sank in the seat back to normal as if transferring personalities between 2 individuals. It hit me instantly, this is what I have been fighting for 15 years?!

I learned an excellent lesson there. If I listen to Abbas’s Spirit I can avoid my flesh. Time to put this lesson into practice.

I had several confirmations before regarding a Jezebel Spirit as well.

I recalled earlier where I had spoken to a different friend and they gave me words about whispers into the ears of my household, dark clouds and staring off at the floor, which by the way was happening as I was in the phone! I began to take notice as this went on with these interactions every single time . I had confirmation recently when someone left the house. God told me to pray so I did. I asked God for confirmation about it. As soon as they returned they conveyed to me what had just happened.

Later at another meeting they all prayed for me and bound the attacks against the demonic spirits from it entering my household again.

After prayer meeting Jim Paul on the way out heard God speaking to him & said their were 4 Principalities over my house that were laughing hysterically and proud about me getting kicked out of my house. They planned on doing it again. He also said they were attached to 4 people. BINGO! I love confirmation.

The next visit, they never even crossed the threshold, only to stand in the doorway!

I brought up an issue that was happening to a friend of mine Jennifer Yeingst. My bro Rick Hummer also mentioned this type of thing in our conversation. It literally happened on the phone and shocked the both of us because we both heard this spirit.

Jim mentioned about an entity that can manipulate conversations, Leviathan? I can’t recall what it’s name was. This thing actually completely alters the conversation so that it is not even close to what you said. I highly suggest binding the enemy before any confrontations!

OK, so as I read this all these, arguments on social media are going through my mind. 1 example is something that happened recently in a thread of mine. I felt I was to walk away. I did for a time being but unfortunately came back. 1 of my friends called it right away and mentioned an “Orphan Spirit”.

The next time we got together for fellowship they prayed for me and how to respond to people as God gave them a word about “Orphan Spirits”. Love is what they needed in their own lives. I love confirmation! WOW God is so good!

(*Enter video evidence link here when it is loaded to Eastgate Fellowship)

We then began to pray after sharing and what happened totally blew me away!


Funny how the last incident in social media just before coming was about speaking in the spirit. Unfortunately,  I bought into doubt temporarily. Funny thing is that that’s the topic we talked about between prayers. There are no coincidences!

PRAYER MEETING: 1st… 11 Cor 10:3-5 For though we live in the world we do not rage war as the world does. 4. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. 5. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

Yes, I should have listened regarding quarrels.

Then I heard that still small voice “Take off your hat”. At 1st I doubted is that you? (Ugh, OK, but I’m self conscious, I have no cash for a hair cut my hair trimmers died, man I wish I left it at home and fixed it somehow before coming,) making excuses, (but OK,) I thought to myself. I did temporarily between prayers. As I held my head down and covered it with my hands.

PRAYER MEETING: 2nd we discover in 1 Cor 14:1-4 that flowing tongues edifies the believer because where we____ are to God.

As I continued praying in the spirit. I asked God, (If this is from you please have Jim repeat what he just said.)

PRAYER MEETING: It’s worship it’s prayer and as it builds the one who releases it.

Jim continued on praying and did not repeat what he said. He mentioned having faith, WOAH! I did and continued on anyhow.

PRAYER MEETING: 3rd It’s suggested from Luke 10:17-21 that even Jesus spoke in tongues?

God spoke to me again, “Take off your hat until prayer is finished” (but, but, …. OK) so I did.

PRAYER MEETING: HOW DO BELIEVERS RECEIVE THE FLOW IN THE GIFTS OF THE SPIRIT see Luke 11:13 “If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your father in heaven give the holy spirit to those who ask him!” Well let’s just ask him right now… Feel free to pause and do so if you are reading this!

Than Jim repeated himself saying exactly what he said earlier. WOW God is good!

God spoke to me again; “Lift up your hands when you pray (but my wrist is sore & I’m tired” OK, fine.) After I did, flashes of images of someone holding a staff or rod over a high ledge looking down on a massive battle below for some reason.. I’m not sure but I think it may have been Joshua? I’ll google it later. If so, I totally have to draw what I saw! It was absolutely crazy! This here is close to this image I found, but from behind him, more enclosed and circular from where he stood:

1st The Bible teaches that the term “singing in or with my spirit is actually singing in tongues..

“Will you be a fool for me” (OK, yes, yes, I will be a fool for you.) BOOOOM! I  bellowed out hysterically laughing for several minutes. (at 1st I was embarrassed but I let it go, that and I couldn’t stop it) LOL

PRAYER MEETING: read 1 Cor 14:14-15 read Ephesians 5:18-19.. read Colossians 3:16

Later someone mentioned about being a fool. BOOM I broke out in laughter again

Hebrews 13:15 “Through Jesus, therefore, let us continually offer to God a sacrifice of praise-the fruit of lips that openly profess his name.”

It’s sacrifice of praise that is powerful in a few ways:

a Volition sacrifice when don’t: want to..

(it’s funny because as I’m typing this out, I’m tired, hungry and don’t want to. He told me when I got home; “Don’t eat” because he wanted me to write in this journal. I was also hesitant about posting this because I could see this starting religious fights online but I will be obedient because HE told me to do so.


an Emotional sacrifice when don’t: feel like it..

Funny how Jim came outside as I was heading to the van to make sure I write this down in my journal. Then Lynn turned to me as I said I love confirmation, “Yes Rob, right it down before you lose it.)

a Temporal sacrifice when you don’t think you have: time to worship..

Guilty as charged.

a Mental sacrifice when you don’t actually: know what you are saying

Not anymore. LOL Oh, and we prayed for understanding.

How about you and how about now…?

This entire time I kept on making these deep breaths. Why do I keep taking such deep breaths? God says “I’m filling you with my strength”.

I tried to share everything that happened in the meeting that night. God did so much I hope I didn’t miss anything. Doubt, Obedience, BAM, Confirmation, Fear, Obedience, BAM, Confirmation, over and over and over again the entire night.

When I did share they mentioned a song of worship; “I will become even more undignified than this, humiliated in my own eyes”. Later just before leaving Dianne told me about what happened to King David. WOW!


On my way home I was talking to Lynn about everything that happened. Several people had different visions including red carpet, the number 8 which is new beginning, finances as well as what Lynn shared regarding the sword he found in his building at the bottom of the stairs. He picked it up to take to the office and when he got in the elevator the cops were there looking for it. In the meeting he shared how God spoke to him about the sword. I also saw a vision of binding chains and cuffs being broken.

Bound in chains no longer, this is a new beginning, God is rolling out the red carpet and will provide finances for our ministries and is taking the weapons from the enemy and handing them over to us.


Did I mention that just enough money was donated? I had my final notice for website renewal and now my cell is reconnected as well! Time to let go of being uncomfortable in pictures and video. NOW it’s TIME to get busy. PRAISE GOD!

I also remembered the last time I was beaten down. I didn’t even care anymore because I was so desperate. I dropped in the middle of my kitchen face down on the floor weeping in front of everyone crying out for God to help me.

Then I told Lynn as we continued home. “I know what HE has in store I know whats coming. I have heard the Prophesies and seen FLASHES and Visions myself of what is to come, to be used as vessel for his glory.”

This reminded me also of what I was told by God through a friend. “You are coming to a fork in the road in your life soon. You will have to choose between 2 paths. 1 is fame and fortune, the other will be hard and lonely, but their will be souls, many souls.”

I want to to do drop down on my face and worship anywhere. Who cares if it’s in the middle of a restaurant, on the street, or in a mall.. or even work..


Satanic Attack; Sleep Paralysis, Jezebel, New Age, WitchCraft & Legal Rights


I recently awoke from this nightmare; the blender of going to hell & back.

I later found out in chats & comments that The Creator had many people intercede. Someone close to me said something & my heart shattered into a million pieces:

My Father also had my Pastor Jim Paul Intercede for me at that moment. Jim said he felt deep pain & that he had intense deep groaning’s. I immediately Googled: “Groaning & Bible” & this is what I found; “Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.” WOW!


So now I am analyzing the timeline so that I may learn from all of this. I recall assisting with church planting in Pakistan & their area was surrounded by Muslims where this gentlemen found Yeshua/ Jesus but had to hide his faith. We were doing an online church in his house after dinner so that he could pack it to the brim with fellow believers & then this happened to me the night before:

Satanic Attack; Sleep Paralysis, Jezebel, New Age, WitchCraft & Legal Rights

BOOM! There it is!

Now here I am again, UGH! After what 3 months of torment I am back & realizing I slacked in the “Radical Love” department & pretty much EVERYTHING else. Oy vey! I show up & JUST as I walk in Jim is talking about “signs” and how God will tell you what HE has planned but you don’t always get it right away.

Immediately, I  flashback to the Prophetic words about computers & work that was given to me. There were 3  people who said the same thing to me who lived in different parts of the world, don’t know each other and were spoken at separate locations & times. Somewhere in that madness I was furious as all these injuries & when  carpal tunnel kicked in I totally lost it! How the heck am I supposed to do construction & renovations now? Never mind that it hurts to hold a mouse even for a few clicks.

Now that the dust has finally settled, here I am reflecting. How did I end up here?

I remember when it was just me & The Big Guy in my room for 2 years  & just after he led me to a home fellowship I had a wedding to attend. At the bust stop on the way I was hit by Abba’s Spirit. HE told me not to go. I knew why but argued; “it’s my best friend’s wedding I have to go!” and so I did.

I showed up at the wedding & 1 glass of Spirit Wine led to another & to another etc. I knew I couldn’t have only 1 from dealing with this issue in the past. The music was also obviously Spiritually Defiling. For 2 weeks I went from ecstatic & on fire carrying the good book & news wherever I went very subtly to a dark hazy oppressive melancholy state of mind. When several weeks had passed a light bulb came on & I said to myself; “wait, what’s going on?”

So the next week I repented & rejoined fellowship. A soon as I walk in Jim looks at me & says; “someone using Witchcraft,  in your family has thrown a hex on you”. (No comment, but confirmed) I literally felt this thing being pulled out over the top of my head & BANG it was gone!

After when I arrived at home I was all ticked off. I was LIVID!  I thought I was invincible now?

So I asked him & HE told me: “IT’S LIKE POKING HOLES IN MY UMBRELLA”. I sighed as I hung my head. OK I get it now! The Enemy is the Legalist & slicker than any Wall Street Lawyer.

Satanic Attack; Sleep Paralysis, Jezebel, New Age, WitchCraft & Legal Rights
Flash forward  & back to this last round, there were other Prophetic Words as well. Many of these recent attacks were from Jezebel Spirits. (No comment, but confirmed) New Agers have also been using that Goobely Gark wording combined with Crystals which has been akin to Witchcraft against me. (I’m almost positive I know who, though their intentions may have been pure it’s still demonic power from the wrong Source.) And once again, speaking of, Witchcraft attacks again to boot. Later, someone else pulled my aside & told me privately that I opened Legal Doors. They were things I have looked at & that I need to be careful & close them. I knew immediately precisely what she/ HE meant!

I get life throws you curve balls & some issues are environmental but some was self-induced & could have been avoided if I had only listened. I even put myself into debt again. I knew better:

When the snowball that had gained momentum going down this hill of insanity all went down I kicked my boat, broke my toe, my foot is swollen & I’m back in crutches again. LOL In retrospect I am soooo happy! Though I should have avoided in doing so in that way, the anger motivated me to focus on where I wanted to be in my life. It snapped me into clarity, breaking me out of the ice burg, to my knees & back into the PROTECTION & loving arms of my Father.

I went back & opened just about every door just recently.

If you have ANY “Open doors” close them. Don’t open ANY! Save yourself  & others around you from turmoil & a broken toe. LOL

RADICAL LOVE, Spiritual Headship, My Familiar Spirit: “The Spirit of Infirmity”

IMMEDIATELY after I repented my wife shut herself in our basement and went through 4 years of torment:

All my so called; Panic Attacks, Heart Palpitations, Social Anxiety & Agoraphobia became her “symptoms”. After 2 years alone with just me & The Almighty speaking to me as I prayed, reading his words & worshiping I decided to look for a local church. Unfortunately, they believe that demonic spirits took a vacation to Mars.

That is when I dropped to my knees and asked him for something REAL. I was passed through several people and finally someone told me to go to 32 Mary. When I arrived it was Jim Paul the Prophetic man of The Almighty who walked me through salvation roughly 18 years prior. I LOVE confirmation!

My wife would stay up days on end at times up to 72hrs. She would only come out to eat. She was a social butterfly helping at children’s community centers, running the local baseball league etc, the happy go lucky center of attention spunky woman I love.  My children went without their mother for over 4 years! It was extremely hard on them. She never left the house and stopped attending family events and functions. When she did come out to grab food and retreat into the basement this was typically a very intense situation as only negative attention was given to everyone and more importantly the children. Anytime she heard me whispering to them about The Creator she would run up cursing; “No religion in this house!”

Jim had a prophetic word that I had to forgive myself for what had happened to her and I broke down that day. As time went by I also had many Prophetic words from Jim & even other Prophets who I asked to pray for her salvation like Joan regarding “RADICAL LOVE”, because that’s how I was going to win my family back.

When I was praying for this woman who had passed away words began pouring out of my mouth that were not mine. I looked around me as I was thinking what just happened? Was that me who said that? Where did those words even come from? As time passed it happened a 2nd time. This time I walked downstairs groggy and incoherent as I do when I wake and said pretty loud, firm and stern: “I BIND THE SPIRIT OF INFIRMITY OVER MY WIFE & THIS HOUSE IN THE NAME OF JESUS & I COMMAND YOU TO LEAVE!”

3 days after my wife began sleeping with me in the same bed, going out shopping, calling all her girlfriends catching up and hanging out with our children I was ecstatic but dumbfounded how it seemed that a switch  flipped from off to on. Admiring my wife from a distance as she was bubbly chatting away on the phone like her old self it dawned on me, it was that incident 3 days prior. I rrraced to the computer and Googled: “Infirmity” reading all the definitions from 3 dictionaries. BAAAAAAAAAANG! There it was! I have been breaking down & thanking & praising him several times a day for a month now! MY KIDS HAVE THEIR MOTHER & I HAVE MY WIFE BAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!

I had to learn several things 1st. Spiritual Headship, Obedience & LOVE, LOVE, LOVE,  – *RADICAL LOVE!

Richard Dawkins, Sexual Abuse – A Deeper Rooted Issue

Richard Dawkins, Sexual Abuse – A Deeper Issue for the Evolution Fight

I realize that many of us refer to Clinton Richard Dawkins quite often, especially those battling for creation apologetic’s.  I would like to take a completely different approach, looking at it from an introspective angle many may have not heard before?  Many creationists and evolutionist alike were appalled at Mr. Dawkins for his comments about paedophilia. Mr. Dawkins has since responded to his remarks to clear things up. However this article won’t focus on whether he should have worded things differently but to examine his deeper rooted issues.

Richard Dawkins Pedophile Remarks

Richard Dawkins, one of the world’s most famous and outspoken atheists, has provoked outrage among child welfare, protection agencies and experts after suggesting that recent child abuse scandals have been overblown.  In an interview in The Times magazine on Saturday Sept. 7 2013, Dawkins, 72,  attempted to defend what he called “mild paedophilia,” which, he says, he personally experienced as a young child and does not believe causes “lasting harm.” Dawkins went on to say that one of his former school masters “pulled me on his knee and put his hand inside my shorts,” and that to condemn this “mild touching up” as sexual abuse today would somehow be unfair.

Dawkins was molested by a master at his primary school while he watched a squash match. True to his scientific bent, he describes it pretty clinically in his book An Appetite for Wonder: “He did no more than have a little feel, but it was extremely disagreeable (the cremasteric reflex is not painful, but in a skin-crawling creepy way it is almost worse than painful) as well as embarrassing.” After it was over, young Dawkins ran off to tell his friends. Many of them had the same unfortunate experience. In his telling, it seems to have been more or less regarded as bad luck, rather like having been bowled for a duck (having scored no runs) in cricket. “I don’t think he did any of us lasting damage,” he notes.

“I am very conscious that you can’t condemn people of an earlier era by the standards of ours. Just as we don’t look back at the 18th and 19th centuries and condemn people for racism in the same way as we would condemn a modern person for racism, I look back a few decades to my childhood and see things like caning, like mild paedophilia, and can’t find it in me to condemn it by the same standards as I or anyone would today,” he said. He also added that his other classmates also experienced abuse at the hands of this teacher, “I don’t think he did any of us lasting harm.”

Scarred by Religion

According to this article Clinton Richard Dawkins had a privileged upbringing in a family with a strong tradition in the colonial service. Born in Kenya, he attended a series of public schools: a boarding school in Southern Rhodesia (“now the sick dictatorship of Zimbabwe”); St Anne’s School in Chelmsford, where he was bullied by some big girls; then another boarding school, Chafyn Grove in Salisbury. It was perhaps here that the seeds of his atheism were sown: the then headmaster, Mr Galloway, “truly believed all that stuff, unlike many educators who pretend to do so out of duty, and politicians who pretend to do so because they are under the . . . impression that it wins votes.” I myself would completely agree. Though, I could psycho analyze his many deviations that led him away from his true father in heaven as this article dives into, I plan on focusing on the root cause and the initial turn in his life away from his creator.

Looking into the school where the incident took place, it seems as though Richard was tainted in the religious sense, especially those who were supposed to instruct, guide and protect him in this extremely sensitive stage in his development. “Chafyn Grove pupils are ambitious, energetic and willing to have a go at everything while also learning from their mistakes. They are supportive and considerate towards each other, nurtured by our caring pastoral system and inspired by our team of talented and committed teachers.”

Richard Dawkins seems to have much deeper rooted psychological issues going on here. I could expand on this and take the mainstream view of his childhood and the horrible experiences that this man has endured. However, that stated, I would prefer to look at the spiritual implications of these horrendous events that lead Richard Dawkins down a dark and bitter road.

Testimonial, Projection of Anger

In my own personal life I had experienced the trauma of sexual abuse from both sexes. Unfortunately, the majority of these experiences were done in the religious environments as well. I have been in and out of many, many churches. I never recalled much of my child hood at the time as many memories I had blocked out. This is very typical for an individual who suffers from any kind of abuse or trauma. In recent years, I had flash backs, panic attacks, heart palpitations, social anxiety and agoraphobia. Due to the brainwashing of the mainstream perspectives on solutions for dealing with these symptoms through psychiatric care and pharmakeia, I wasted many years indoctrinated and sedated on these abominable medications avoiding the real and only solution.

The last time I was sexually assaulted in a church setting I had attempted to communicate to the pastors through the elders in the church but to no avail. Nothing was done, there was no follow up and no one discussed anything with me whatsoever. This led me down a dark angry path, from taunting God at the top of my lungs on a regular occasion, to being completely angry with him and eventually a fifteen year back slide into an abyss of despair and self-destruction. Obviously, I was projecting my anger onto God. In the later years, I was abused outside the church setting, even drugged and raped. Should I blame God, I thought at the time or should I blame the individual?

The Prodigal Son Returns

I am going to make a long story short and summarize, to focus on the Dawkins issue. Many years had gone by attempting to resolve these issues according the world’s standards and doing it my way. After cutting through all the lies of this world I could see through the fog of confusion, the matrix of lies and deceptions which led me back to my creator. I pleaded for help and cried out to God as my life fell apart. You get what you pray for, ask and receive. I had to be broken down so that he could re mold me. I went from taunting God to seeking and sincerely asking him instead. The humility approach had completely changed everything, especially the results.

I truly began having an intimate relationship. I spent a couple of years just me and him in my bedroom, several times a day, repenting, reading, worshipping and praying. The transformation was supernatural! All of those, so-called medical “diagnosis and symptoms”, instantly left me as the Holy Spirit filled my room. No more panic attacks, heart palpitations and agoraphobia. Those unclean spirits of oppression and affliction high tailed it out of there. After, only God knows how long, I was completely free!

Forgiveness is The Solution

Two years went by with only me and God and my closet.  I asked him where should I go from here? He sent me to a home Bible study. I was completely blown away when I found out who was holding these meetings. It was Jim, the man who led me to Christ 15 years prior to my backslide and he lived not far from where I live. I love confirmation!

This man truly walks in and with many gifts of the Spirit. As the study went on, God began to move. He began speaking to Jim, another amazing gift that was departed to him. Jim (though nothing to do with him) apologized for what happened many years ago in the church and for forgiveness. I broke down in tears and forgave the church and specific people who I felt hurt by. I literally began to feel the struggle, and physically! The only way I can describe how it felt was that a nachash or velcio raptor like talon was buried deep inside my heart and began tearing away. All I felt was tug, tug, tug, riiip! It was a sharp pain and hurt quite a bit.

Maybe this is just part of the spiritual battle we are in? Maybe what Paul wrote while in prison in Ephesians 6 is more real than we can ever imagine? After all Jesus himself stated that he told people earthly things and no one believed him, never mind the heavenly realm.

In retrospect, I truly believe that we all need to pray for Richard on a daily basis! I have a new-found love for this man. I see him through different lenses now. He has daddy issues & I mean his real father. He is only projecting. I pray one day he can forgive those who transgressed against him as our father forgives us.  It is the absolute most freeing experience he could ever dream of! Imagine if he to came to Christ? What an impact he could have for the kingdom! Someone with such a high-profile would truly be an amazing testimony of God’s grace, unconditional love and forgiveness! If any of you out there have something you are holding on to, I beg you, it’s not worth it. Save yourself years of torment. Free them and yourself! Forgiveness is the solution, period.

If any of you out there have something you are holding on to, I beg you, it’s not worth it. Save yourself years of torment. Free them and yourself! Forgiveness is the solution, period.

Public Confessions of Weakness; & LOVE over Religion

This is a Public Apology:

Unfortunately, there are too many names to list. Some people I may have hurt that I am unaware of, whatsoever.

I was convicted by the Holy Spirit this weekend at my local home church. It’s a small group of 12 leaders lead by Jim Paul a humble yet powerful prophetic man of The Creator.


“Relationship Subtly Faded”

I had been beating down my brothers and sisters for beating on others because they possibly have been beat on as well?  That’s ludicrous! I no longer want to partake in this vicious cycle of madness! LOVE over Religion, always.

For those of you who have been patient with me in my biggest weakness, which has caused me to backslide into sin; THANK YOU!

I stated that breaking my foot was the BEST thing that has happened to me. I wasn’t kidding at all! And when the power went out I finally opened my bible again! Spiritual conviction hit me immediately via Jeremiah 16.


When I 1st spoke out publicly, I was reading and worshiping 3x a day. Excluding research and up until the power went out, it was almost 6 months before I opened it and meditated. I refuse to let religious spirits blow out my flames of passion and drive me away from my relationship again!

“My Weakness”

I have a major issue I have dealt with since I began to connect with other Christians in social media. I believe I have found where the root of this all began.

When I was in grade school I hung out with a variety of clicks. I was athletic, a geek and all the way to hanging around my best friends; the outcasts. However, I preferred to be alone as I am an INFP.

Whenever I saw anyone picking on or beating up others, like those in grade 9 I would see picking on the grade 4’s, I would jump in to defend them immediately. I have always tried to help people. Even if they were twice my size.


On occasion it would progress to physical violence. The first time I ever drew blood was after breaking someones nose. I was sent to the principles office. I have never told the principal that it was his son I was defending to this day. I knew then what I know now. Just because they drew 1st blood doesn’t give me the right to return the favor!

“Fighting this Battle with Scripture”

I asked The Creator how to deal with this situation. “Thy word have I hid in my heart that I might not sin against thee” began playing over and over in my head. OH, the irony! LOL

I was up all Saturday night baling about this scenario. He has moved on this weakness heavily in my spirit lately. During fellowship we began studying Matthew 5:3-5. Needless to say, I began baling at every pause as we stopped at to analyze and take this back to the original text.

I have always been extremely emotional, good or bad. I’m hyper sensitive and I assume that’s why one of my spiritual gifts are “Intercession”?

Prophetic words were given about religious spirits and I finally have my scripture to memorize!

“The MEEK shall Inherit the Earth”

This issue had bothered me so much because of my loss of self-control. I even let my daughter change my password to my Facebook account until I could resolve this because of my slipping. After church, I non “coincidentally” ended up under Chris Lesley’s latest video:

I noticed several opposing views under his video and a stranger, but brother, who was loosing his patience. I’m only assuming it’s because he’s been fighting evolution for some time which is understandable. Who really knows? Maybe his mom died of cancer or son was hit by a bus? I try to remember these are real people with real feelings and real life issues. Normally I would have confronted him. There is hope for me yet!

I jumped in and asked the opposing view to look at what many other non creationists are saying and as a Civil Engineer, the mainstream views are ridiculous.

He apologized and I told him what I was going through as well and asked him to join REAL GIANTS.


We connected on Facebook, had several good private conversations. I hope some day he to can come to know The Creator. “The meek shall inherit the earth.”


Why can’t I treat my brothers and sisters with the same empathy and compassion? The church is where the broken and damaged congregate and flock towards. Some are going through hell on earth and others just came into the kingdom yesterday.

Jim Whilhelmsen shared an excellent testimony recently which was perfect for what I needed to hear. He was visiting a group of kids. The leader, who all the young impressionable minds look to for counsel and guidance attacked him on some non essentials. The Holy Spirit told Jim to leave it alone because if he did respond it was only going to damage the children. BOOOM! There it is!

Monday night Jim messaged me and told me he was opening Pal Talk back up that night. I was ecstatic!

The message he shared hit home again. We need to set aside our minor differences and work together for what is “coming up on the earth”. He’s right! There is waaay to much at stake!


“Forgive Me”

For those that hurt me, I forgive and release you. For those I hurt, I am truly sorry! Some day, when you are ready, please forgive me and set yourself free. Bitterness can hold you back from your true potential and purpose.

I won’t let this have power over me any longer. Time for me to drop my boxing gloves and use my hands to heal instead. It was prophesied over me long ago; time to fulfill my purpose and destiny.

What’s yours?

Taking Matters Into Your Own Hands VS Letting Go

If anyone was wondering what all the Drama was about at 3 am here it is. Yes, I edited this status update:


I woke up this morning at around 3am. Some of you know I have not claimed to be anything but an intercessor.

Earlier tonight my sister was curious about why I was tearing up while listening to Destiny Lab, yet turning my head trying to hide them.

I explained to her what had happened in regards to my me being set free from the coming Strong Delusion.

I briefly mentioned what happened with me when my daughter came home not long afterwords asking me about the “Big Bang”.

That is why I feel so passionately about raising awareness to Kent’s situation.

I fell asleep tonight watching Kent Hovind’s “Garden of Eden”  hoping my sister would benefit as well.

*A few hours later I woke up upset, grieving. Instead of praying about the situation as I should have I took matters into my own hands.

I went to take advantage of Social Media, joining and hitting all the Pensacola pages. I also began joining all the Facebook groups.

It is a strategy I used to help spread the word for the 2nd last Giant Conference in Texas.

This is the audio made available from our Ancient Mysteries: Sons Of God, Giants Of Old conference.

I was informed later many people mentioned that calmcrash sent them there. Initially, I was helping behind the scenes and did not want any attention as per Matthew 6.

I am only mentioning it now for 2 reasons. The 1st being, that I was told to do a journal elaborated in the 1st link above.  The 2nd is so that you also will be inspired to use whatever time you have to reach as many people as you can, and of course as you are led. Besides, it’s public now anyways:

I truly hope that it touched many people in a deeper level than I can comprehend today just as Kent Hovind mentions his passion for souls in “Evolution the Foundation for Communism.”

In retrospect, this was a beautiful strategy. However, what I did today was something quite different.


Just as I was joining all the Pensacola Groups, “on a mission from God”, or so I thought, a powerful woman of God began chatting with me in private. The timing could not be more impeccable. There are NO coincidences. Speaking of taking matters into my own hands and being counterproductive; some of you have heard me say “The Big Guy told *me no more debates”. Now you know why I don’t have the patience nor tact anymore.


She started off by saying, “You are a spirit filled believer correct? Tomorrow we need all the prayer warriors on that prayer line we can get. I hope you pray with us.” It’s funny because I am an intercessor. Hmm, intercessor, prayer & believer, well encouraging me to fast, I love conviction!

(I just screenshot these as I was writing so the times are off)

I mentioned about breaking down every time I think about his situation. She said, “well how do you think that this thing grieves God ? We need to be careful when we ask God to break our heart for what breaks his.”


I was killing myself, loosing sleep taking these matters into my own hands instead of handing this over to The Creator.  She continued on, “we are to have faith that produces much, the word says ‘faith as a mustard seed’..


YES, I even joined the humane society and I was just warming up as I joined a 100+ groups. Next was the IRS, documents and “Jury Nullification” information.

All things it is possible with God!”

Meanwhile, I was afraid as some were liking and commenting others would join and go overboard, which is what I tend to do.


In reality I have many other friends around Facebook who I believe should give the Holy Spirit some more breathing room as well. Nope, I’m not taking it down. Lesson learned, I pray. This puppy is going in my journal:


Whatever happens as Kent Hovind says, you wouldn’t eat.. Crisco by itself, ..Salt, ..Flour,.. etc, but when you put them together (down the road after letting the Holy Spirit work, my insertion). “All things work together for good..”

So far Ken’t situation has inspired thousands of others as well as reaching over 700 people in jail. Just helping 1 would be all worth it in the end.

She continues on, “when Jesus told them to have faith as a mustard seed that does not mean little faith. God says do not lean on your own understanding. When you feel you are loosing hope, get into his word.”

The past 2 weeks for me have been all about letting go. I even dropped to my knees less than 1 weeks ago and gave him my house. Something brewing is in the works, a fire deep within. I hope this encourages many to also let go in every aspect of your lives, from family, material items like houses and everything between, even social media.